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Friday, July 21, 2006
Vicious Cycle
Dunch think its the first time I had this thought..
Dunch think its the first time I had this problem..
Its really a vicious cycle bah..
Think some of u heard quite a number of times le..
Think some of u also tired of hearing le..
But then, while most of the time i'm trying to push the blame to other factors..
Think, its time I reflect on myself le bah..
Not giving the excuse of being too young, but seriously think I'm too young to hold such responsiblities in the company..
Dunch think I am thinking mature enough..
Instead of solving, I usually create troubles..
Some say its a passing phrase.. but then, I dunch think I am ready to hold such responsiblities..
Think I'm still very childish lah, hoping to be spoon fed..
I dunch like the make mistakes and learn in the process..
Especially when the mistakes are not due to taking risks, due to ideals or even principles..
Making mistakes because:
"Not listening to others"
"Never check"
"My heart is not here" - Quoted by my own collegue..
"Dont remember"
Sick huh..
Didnt realised I was such a failure in working life..
Think my heart really not at work leh..
But I'm also not sure where is it ya..
I shld have realised it long ago..
The very first time I realised I wasnt enjoying my job in the company..
Looking back at the past one year past of my working life..
Its really nothing but troubles I've created ya...
I seriously dont know what I am doing..
Perhaps deep down I was regretting not taking up the degree bah..
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps..
Wahahahaha..
Dunch worry,
I'm asking myself wat I really want..
I'm really trying hard on finding the answer..
Will get it soon..
:)
posted by Elephant on 12:01 PM
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